Our marriage story is proof that love can be restored and renewed after an affair
My husband Jim and I met when I was sixteen living in Arizona, and he was still in the Navy. We immediately hit it off and developed a long distance friendship.
There were a lot of letters written! (we didn’t have email, skype of facetime then!)
We got married
He moved to Arizona after getting out of the Navy. We were incredibly in love and people envied our closeness. We knew God had brought us together.
So Jim and I got engaged and married a few years later ( I was 19).
Our 3 boys were born
Three years later our oldest son was born, then by 1999 we had all our three boys.
We had a happy little family and our marriage was good. But I also felt empty inside. Life had settled into a routine, I became depressed, and I began to lose myself over the years. (It may sound like an excuse, but it’s the best way I can explain it).
I know many of you Mom’s and Wives will understand the demand for our attention and the needs around us everyday. If we don’t have self-care and remember to do those things that made us who we are, we risk turning to SOMETHING to fill that emptiness. (Too often that ‘something’ will not be a healthy choice). I didn’t recognize how desperate and in danger I was, of compromising my core beliefs.
In 2007, I went through a series of events that led my heart and mind down a rough path. Little resentments not spoken about and stuffed, moving too often, and letting life drift us apart as a couple all contributed to the affair. I turned to alcohol to self medicate my depression and emptiness as I let my relationship with God drift away as well.
I wanted more than I was experiencing and turned to the wrong things.
After rehab for alcohol abuse/addiction, I was doing great in recovery, only to get involved with a man from church 6 months later, trading one addiction for another basically.
“I didn’t think this could ever happen to us in our marriage.
We had been happy for so long before. We loved each other.”
I was blindsided and ashamed by my own
ability to be unfaithful.
The pull of the affair was more than I understood or could handle on my own. Unfortunately, it went on for almost a year, off and on.
It was only when I was truly and completely tired of the direction my life was going, that I was willing to surrender it all to God.
I became willing to do whatever it took to save my marriage and heal the pain.
This site is our true story of what I did to get over the affair and how our marriage was restored.
How I began to figure out and do what would help Jim to heal faster.
I talk about what he did that actually made things worse in the beginning, to help the betrayed husbands reading this to learn from.
I also share what my husband did that helped him heal, and how he learned to take care of himself finally.
And what we did as a couple to restore trust and our marriage.
I can tell you honestly, my husband Jim and I are happier now in our marriage (31 years in 2019) than we have ever been before. (That’s not to say we’re perfect on some high pedestal or anything, but we are so much closer than even before the affair).
It was not easy. It took a lot of time to slowly rebuild the trust. But we made it, and we look at each other almost daily now and say ‘we are so glad we are still together.’
We are grandparents now. We get to grandparent together!
There are also blessings in store for you, if you do the hard work now and see it through.
There is a God who can redeem even the worst of situations.
Yet, please hear me dear one, even if your marriage does not make it through this, there is still hope and restoration for you as a daughter of God.
God loves you and wants to heal every part of you that is broken and hurting. We, as the unfaithful ones, need that healing too, even though many people are just angry at the ‘adulterer’.
But God is not angry with you. He does tell us to turn from our sin, to let it go and turn to Him instead. And I believe when we really do that, we will find a healing and peace that comes from communion with Jesus that we can’t find any other way.
What if you both don’t know if you feel like making your marriage work?
I’d say what helped both of us was first making the decision to commit to the marriage again. He didn’t know if staying was going to work out, because I lost his trust.
But once we both committed to the marriage, and I broke off all contact with the affair partner, we ‘burned the ships’. No turning back. We were going to see this thing through. We both had to stop listening to our feelings, and stick to our decision even when there were hard days.
“Sometimes our feelings just need to
catch up to our decision,
And they eventually will.”
I don’t have all the answers, but if you take the time to read the articles, be humble and willing to change, see a good counselor and pray for God to help you heal, I believe you can come through this better than before. It takes time. But time is going to pass anyway, you might as well do whatever it takes during this time to get your life back where you want it to be.
If you haven’t already, read the posts under to the unfaithful wife, where I describe the 10 stages of your healing after an affair.
Are you a husband trying to get answers after finding out about your wife’s affair? Go to this link and read the posts specifically written for you.